~清美の日記~

30th April 2014. Today was suppose to be a happy day cause finally I'm coming home during semester break. Happy yet sad because of what happen yesterday. Thanks to my tardiness, I let two of my photographer friends waited long for my arrival. And the whole shooting session was a big MESS! I felt bad for myself and I felt ashamed about calling them out for another photo shoot again. (>_<)

I felt so miserable, I let everybody down especially senpai who was looking forward to have a good photo shoot but in the end, nothing turns out right. (nothing turns out right whenever I'm around) *groans* Talked about this problem with my roomie, she said don't think yourself as a jinx, it's just your first photo shoot and you went unprepared. Problems occurs sometimes. I can't help but feeling helpless but at least I'm feeling a little bit alright. （￣ー￣）Ah well in the end, I couldn't help but still feeling bad and miserable during the entire day until I get home. (TT~TT)

Anyway, I reach my hometown at almost 11 p.m?? Well that was hell of along ride back home. I feel pretty bad for my mum who has waited for an hour for my arrival. Again, it's not my fault this time but someone JUST have wait long for my arrival. Why?? （￣～￣?）

Like I said, today was SUPPOSE to be a happy one BUT BAD THINGS just have to keep coming to me. On my way home, I was hungry and my mum want to bring me to buy a late night supper. We came across a junction, the area just happen to be dark, VERY dark as there were no street light. We came to a junction and we CAN actually make a turn already. BUT SOMEHOW, a motorcyclist, thought "oh, I'm heading straight, this car wanna make a turn, maybe I should head straight faster before they make the turn.Besides, this road heading straight." And the motorcyclist JUST HAVE TO SPEED UP AND DON'T WANNA SLOW DOWN, CAME RUNNING IN FRONT OF US, AND THEN BANG!!!!!!! Mum couldn't stop in time and hit the motorcyclist. HOW WONDERFUL! I MET AN ACCIDENT RIGHT AFTER I CAME BACK KL. How ironic too, bad things do follow me everywhere.

Anyhow, once there's an accident, you know what happens next. The authorities, the helpers, the busy-bodies, and the on-lookers just have to be there, doing their job, settle some problems, oh yeah, my brother and his friends were there to help out with the situation. And so, after midnight, we went to the nearby police station and make a report. After done with the major procedures, the police officers asks us to go meet with the sergeant to clarify things out.

FUNNY THING THOUGH!! We asked an officer where is this sergeant's office. He says it's right here and "TELL US TO WAIT IN HIS OFFICE". And soon after the sergeant came and yell at us. "What are doing in my office? Who call you to come in?" We were shocked and brother immediately answer, "the officer tell us to wait in here". Well, somehow the officer is displeased and said in a sarcastic tone, "This is not right! You can't just come in here. Everything in here is confidential. What if something in here go missing? This ain't right!"

Perhaps it's just me but I bet brother and mum must be thinking the same. (WHAT??!!! (・∀・?) Sir, your colleague told us to wait in your office and we just did what he told us. We didn't know without your permission, we're not allowed to be in your office. Why push the blame to us? We're just following "your" instructions. And yet, we're the one to blame for not following procedures. *scoffs* To that fellow officer, YOU'RE DOING YOUR JOB WELL!! GOOD JOB, I SALUTE YOU!!) (ｏ`皿′ｏ)\

So, mum explained what happen to the sergeant. Well, maybe mum was still terrified after the accident and she did tried to explain herself what REALLY happen.Without hearing further and CLEARER explanation, the sergeant just accused mum was at fault. THE F***???!!!!! The junction was clear and okay for us to make the turn. Perhaps the entire road was dark and we didn't notice a motorbike was coming BUT ONE THING WE MAKE SURE OF THAT IS THE JUNCTION WAS CLEAR AND NO VEHICLE WHEN WE'RE MAKING THE TURN. Poor that motorcyclist don't wanna slow down and came running to our direction). Of course, the sergeant insist mum was at fault. (o___o) (-___-) (=___=) Okay, so the motorcyclist was riding on the road which is heading straight, he gets the priority, and we're at wrong. (T_T) We can make the turn already. From afar, that motorcyclist should be able to see the car is making a turn and he should be slowing down at least. Oh, just because he was riding the road that was heading straight and he gets all the priorities. So to him perhaps, it doesn't matter after all, that we were the ones wanted to make the turn first and only after that he came running in. "The ones who're riding that straight road has the priority". Is that what you want to tell us?? I hope you're not covering for that motorcyclist just because he's "YOUR KIND".

And the sergeant added, since the accident already happen, you've got no choice but to pay the fines. Mum in a trembling voice, asked how much? The sergeant reply in a sarcastic tone again, "its not much. Just RM500." Deep down inside me, I felt bad and terrible for mum. She hit a motorcyclist by accident, got blamed for the cause, and had to pay the fine. We well aware that if things like this happen, we have to pay the fine, but what gets on my every nerves is the way the sergeant said it! "It's not much, just RM500~"
EXCUSE ME SIR, to you, that RM500 might seem nothing, oh yes. That's because there is "some PEOPLE" who are "FEEDING" you every single day although you're working. And "WE", "WE" who worked our a** off to pay the "PEOPLE" who "FEED" "YOUR KIND" mostly. Hence, it is "US" who are "FEEDING" "YOU KIND". So, be grateful when there's some giving you "FREE FOOD". By the way, RM500 wasn't "not much" FOR CERTAIN PEOPLE!!!!!!

After that, the sergeant said "go back home and wait for the letter to arrive". Alright, in the end we still have to pay that fine regardless of what we said. Seems to me like "just pay the RM500, and it's settled". Easy for you to say MR. SERGEANT, for someone who's being "FED". We went home and sorted things out with dad. Not only we have to pay for the fine but also the repairs for our car. The damaged parts can't be fixed but need a replacement. Oh yeah, they costs a big fortune to my family especially dad who's already pass retirement age and still working to feed my family and THAT "CERTAIN PEOPLE".

Thanks to this accident, now I got a closer look on how our another wonderful government servants doing their job. Although it doesn't surprise me much because I had a feeling that it might turned out like this. The dominant kind of this country has all the privileges while the recessive ones just stayed by the sidelines.

Today is my very first photo shoot day!!!!!!!!!!! I'm super excited!!!!!!!!!! I'm really excited to show you my cosplay today and perhaps show you a little improvement I've made for this photo shoot. However, man can plan it all but God decides it. ll(_ _)ll

I woke up late, I pack and prepared as fast as I could and rush down to the bus station. I was a little bit lucky as I don't have to wait long for the bus and yet, I still wish the bus can reach to the LRT station quickly.

As I step on board in the LRT, it's already 10.30 a.m. By the time I reach KLCC it's almost 11 a.m. I put on my make up as fast as I could but it's still no use. It took me almost one and a half hour to put on the make up and I make you guys wait for so long. (what's a person that decide everyone to come early but ends up the one being late) That's me. I feel HORRIBLE!

Not much to lose, I carried on with my shoot. To tell you the truth, I actually came unprepared. So, it was a big mess during the entire shooting. Despite all the big talk, I rarely did the kind of shoot that you both wanted. I really should have prepared well before coming to the shoot.

And so, the day went by just like that. Senpai, if you haven't posted about how you feel during that entire day, I wouldn't have know that I brought so much trouble for you. Perhaps maybe your friend was thinking the same thing too.

I was very annoying and troublesome during the entire day. After you upload the photos, yeah, very few of them are okay but the rest were all disasters. Despite all the hardwork you guys been through, all i ever do was yapping a lot at the back. (>_<)

Senpai, gomenasai. Hontou ni gomenasai. m(_ _)m . If only I've done more research and prepared earlier, this photo shoot would've been more successful. Today, I've made you and your friend came all the way for this failed photo session. I feel so bad about myself. I'm very sorry you have to see the bad side of me today. It wasn't a very pleasant one.

先輩、ごめんなさい。

~清美の日記~

Tuesday, May 6, 2014

私の人生はこれ以上悪化することができますか？

Tuesday, April 29, 2014

申し訳ありませんが、私はあなたを怒らせている場合。ごめんなさい。

Monday, January 6, 2014

New year greetings. 手遅れです！