What's the point??!!!!!

Sometimes I just don't understand the government. I understand why the citizen were so happy when the government provides public transportation for it's citizens. Like, they provided hundreds of buses for the public to use (I wonder where they get the budget to get so many buses). However, little did the citizens know that among those hundreds of buses, only a few tens that are on duty. While the OTHERS ARE JUST FOR SHOW!!!!!! WHY? WHY???!!! Dear government, why spend so much money on public transportation when you're just gonna let few buses driven on the road. WHAT'S THE POINT OF PROVIDING SO MANY WHEN YOU'RE JUST GONNA LET FEW TO GO ON DUTY.

Not to mention there's once where I waited for almost 2 hours just for one freaking bus to come. I was stupid enough to believe that every bus, the government provided will have a good service. BUT WHO AM I KIDDING??!!! This is Malaysia, we do things the abnormal way. When they say "the bus will be arriving in 20 minutes, HEH, might as well multiply it by 2x!!!

Next chapter:

It's coming to an end. It's been 14 weeks already. The end of another semester for me. Well, my time as a first year has ended. I'm gonna be a second year student for the next coming semester. I can't wait to be a senior, it's not like I'll be recognizable as a senior. *sigh* So many things happened and I've experienced many moments as well let it be good or bad. Most of it I would recall as bad memory, but if your life wasn't roller-coaster enough where's the fun? One thing is for sure that I've developed more bad habits than the good one. The older I get, the naughtier I am. Guess some part of me just wanna stay like a kid while my consciousness told me I should move on and be more mature. I try not to be melancholy here but it just happens this nostalgic moments where we all had a flashback what has been going on, how it affected us, and how we gonna bring ourselves up in the future. I'm here, still on my journey of my life, wondering which route will I take this time when come across a junction. I don't expect much what will I find or encounter during my journey, I just want an adventure. Perhaps, I'll just look forward what lies ahead this route. Another adventure BEGINS!!!

man and machine . science

Recently, my roommate is having problem with her laptop and printer. Well, it's the mid-term of the semester already, everybody in feeling tense. Some of these tension just got the best of you. So, when technology doesn't work for my roommate, especially the printer, she'll literally just hit them without a second thought.
It's normal that when some people is very frustrated, they wanna let it out. It's very common. But, it still surprised me that my roommate would actually hit her own printer. Despite saying that she pay one hell of a money for the printer, she keeps on hitting it until I think she going to smash the printer to pieces.

However, I wonder if she know that hitting the printer will not solve the problem or in any case might make the printer more damaged? Hitting it won't solve the problem as what she's hitting is the outer shell of the printer as I would say. The inner components are protected and these components are what making your printer gone wrong. I wish I could tell her that but with her condition right now I'm afraid she'll throw it back at me saying "do I look like an engineer to you?". Might as well just keep it to myself.

Whenever a gadget or a machine broke, I always wondered what caused it to damaged? I'm no engineer but it's sometimes interesting to look at the components that's inside. All you could see was colourful wires, connectors, transistors, those tiny little electronic chip, and they are all connected to a board, metally-glued together. All of these components are arranged nicely together and you can't see the problem. In my case, I would think the problem must the electricity flow in the components that are not working well but I won't know the truth anyway. Sometimes the damage is so complicated that even an engineer can't figure out what's going on.

There is one thing made me think that machines can communicate with us. Not mentioning about robots but a daily machine or gadgets. Sometimes you thought something is damaged, you call someone to fix it. But somehow it magically works well again when the repairman is here. One time, I wanted to watch movies, and no matter how many times I insert the DVD, the player just won't run the CD for me and it had happen many times. I get my father immediately to check the player when that happens. I try showing my dad the player won't run the CD. To my surprise, everytime I call my father, the player works well again. Its like with my father's presence, the player work well just fine. Here I am thinking, "dear DVD player, I'm your master's daughter and you're defying my orders. Are you rebelling against me?"

Technology and machines. Their functional components are just so complicated I don't think I would understand them 1000% even if I'm an engineer. Much like to our brains. What goes on inside my head is always a mystery. I guess that makes us even, Machines. We have no idea how each of your brain works.

Scrambled thoughts

Here I was, typing another blog entries for my weekly assignment AND I AM GETTING NOWHERE OF TYPING THE ENTRY THAT MY TUTOR WOULD ACCEPT *cries at a corner*.

I've typed a few entries to begin with but as I keep on typing, I felt "this is not right". What I'm typing now is just descriptions. My tutor wants explanation, expression of our thoughts and not just roughly describing them. He wants deep thoughts which I have no idea how to them anymore! I'm having doubts! Is this correct? Am I doing it right? This is not descriptive, right? Am I expressing my thoughts? Is this questioning my thoughts? Will my tutor accept them? DEAR BRAIN WHAT ARE YOU THINKING??!!!!

My brain is malfunctioning and I can think straight. All of my thoughts are scrambled and they're aren't getting into order as well as what I'm typing right now. Should I just describe what my thought are? Or express deeply what are my thoughts? Or just deeply thinking describing what my deep thoughts are.

My thinking is definitely going haywire now. How I wish I could bang my head against the wall just to have one tiny little idea for me to blog. So for the time being, I'll just type whatever stupid, non-logic, unrealistic, and non-existent things for my tutor until my brain finally recovers from the malfunction. Hopefully he like them because during class, he always said "try to think something unrealistic. Something that is not logic."

What now?

I cannot believe that I ran out of ideas of what to blog. Deep thoughts, deep thoughts, deep thoughts. Since my tutor wants to know what our brains are thinking all the time, so I might just type out what I'm thinking all the time, how the surroundings that happen make me how I think in that situation.

However, these are not explaining enough what we're actually thinking of. So, I've gonna think deep. I've think deep through enough to bring up all kinds stories, not to mention how hard I drilled through my brain for ideas for our assignments. So now, I have stories for my assignments but, and a big giant egg of idea for my blog.

Facing in front of my precious 5 year old Lappy, I kept on thinking. Still, nothing comes up, it's been a while since my head's "light bulb" last flashed itself. While sitting and wondering, a thought passes through my mind. A faint flash was seen at my light bulb.

Since my tutor wants to know what what we're were thinking, we gave him stories and situations, and we told them in the stories how we felt but it doesn't seem to appeal much. He wants to know our deep thoughts, we gave him our very deepest thoughts and yet THEY'RE AREN'T DEEP ENOUGH. To think that I had expressed how deeply my thoughts are and they're not good enough. What else can I do to make a better blog entries?

I guess to give him the ultimate blog entry, I'll just gonna have to pull my hair out, crack open my skull, drilled through my poor little brain just to get a small piece of story or ideas that I can use for my blog entry. Not to forget to insert some "real super deep thoughts" because my tutor just love to know what's going on inside our head. I wonder what's that piece of deep thoughts he wanna see?? *no offence sir but this is how I felt*

Suffering.Pain - Breakthrough

One more month. One more month till this semester finally ends. So many things to do, so many assignments. They don't stop, they just keep coming. Can I ever finish everything that's piling up right now? There are too many sometimes I can't face it. It's too much, I can't do it. This is too much, it's suffocating, I'm struggling. Looking at this never ending work is tiring. I'm tired. I feel like giving up. Just when I want to put my pencil down, something flash through my mind. "Are you sure? You're giving up halfway? I thought you were stronger. You've been worse than this haven't you? Do you wanna give up halfway after all you been through? We haven't even gotten  to the fun part yet and you're stopping here. You're underestimating yourself too much don't you think?"

*HAH* Who am I kidding? My dear self, snap out of it! This is just my first year of degree and I'm having doubts about my ability, myself. I've got to pull myself together!! If I can't even handle myself well in my first year, how am I suppose to prepare for my second year? Well, I'm just gonna stay tough, hang on, and keep fighting  until I've complete my degree. RIGHT!!! Stop sulking, and chase all negative thoughts away. This is just a thin wall, made of brittle wood which I can just punch through with my fist. The brick wall still awaits me far away. This little wood wall is not going to stop me from bringing down the brick wall that I'm going to face in the future. I'M READY! BRING IT ON!!!!


*Just wanna get some things off my chest. Been very busy with assignments, these never ending assignments get on my nerves most of the time. Well, they can't stop me from doing what I want to achieve!!* FIGHT MODE ON!!!!!!!!!!

Fate and Destiny

"There is no such things as coincidence in this world. There's only the inevitable."

"Destiny: an event that must happen no matter what. Nothing will happen without it. Many things can be imagined from what is seen."

So, I read a story and this author is very in particular about things such as fates and destinies. True enough, I do believe that everything happens for a reason. We may know what the reason is but others are just left a mystery. What I could think of is, destiny are thing that bound to happen no matter what it is. Bad things do happen and people seek to prevent it from happen. However, it is said, you can avoid it but you can never prevent it. That's to say we may avoid it now but in the near future they will happen again. If such things are destined to happen to you, it will happen.

On the other hand, fate is something that's been created for us right from the moment we're born. Example, if we're born into a healthy and wealth family, or born into the poor and slums,it is fated and we'll be living this way until the very end of our lives. If our fate is good, then we'll say "I accept this fate". But some whose fate are bad, some that couldn't take it, curses their fate and live in despair forever. 

It is weird to say that everything has been arranged for us right from the moment we're born. "we plan however we want but God decides all". That's what everyone says. If our fate is destined to be this way, we have no choice but to accept it. What ever we do has been decided. Including commit suicide, we chose to do it, but it's been long decided  and destined that we will do it. It is not a choice but it's been fated and desti ed.

Sketch and Draw~ Let's start it AGAIN!

Being a huge fan of Japanese comics and animation, I've always wondered how great if I could draw the characters that I love. Back then in high school, I always keep few printed pictures of the animation series I watched with me. Having those pictures with me keeps me thinking "I wanna draw these characters!" With these thoughts and feelings, the urge to draw them, in the end, I start doing it myself.

Line by line, I look at the figures, I sketch, erase, and sketch it again, finally I drew a character. To my surprise, I've done a pretty good job on my first try. And so, from time to time at school hours, I would draw my favourite characters onto my notebook and for some reason I noticed, when I was drawing, I pay a full attention to what I was drawing rather than my surroundings. During class, the teacher was teaching while me, myself sitting at the back of the class, feeling very bored, couldn't pay attention to the front, I ended up drawing. As I was focusing on what I was doing, I didn't even realise the one and a half hour of lesson already ended, I kept on drawing like nobody's business until my friend comes and give a pat on my back. I'm surprised. The entire chemistry period ended just like that and here I am, just drawing half of the figure. For a moment there, I felt like I was in another world during the lesson. I couldn't recall what my teacher said, what topic she taught or what was going on during that entire hour. You can say I've regained my "consciousness" when my friend give the pat on my back. Yes, that pat eventually pull me back to Earth.

For a few weeks I was quite indulge in drawing animation characters. I even think someday, I might draw myself few strips of comics and share it with my friends. However, things do not go the way it is. For no reason, I stopped drawing. I didn't know why I stopped. Probably because back then, I have no inspirations. I wasn't inspired by anyone to do it. Maybe because of that, I wasn't motivated enough to continue. despite feeling bored to the max in class, I couldn't bring myself to draw anymore. I felt very lazy. So, my drawing ends there.

Few years later, I finally found my inspiration, I was inspired, and I'm motivated to draw comic characters again! I'm a university student now and seeing the artworks of my course mates who share the same interest as me, I was shocked! THEY DREW SO WELL! The character details, from the hair to the clothes, they're very well drawn. Oh my, this is like the artwork of a real comic artist! Besides, the characters from the animation, they're even able to draw their very own characters. Their original and fan art is just so amazing. I've seen them drawing a character from scratch and they just finish it within few minutes. Well that was quick. The art was great, I couldn't stop staring at it. Thinking about the old artworks I did. All I manage to do was copy the works of others while my mates here can just draw the character without referring. These inspired me to start drawing all over again. I wanted to be able to draw great characters without referring much just like them and I even started buying myself a sketchbook already.

Out of curiosity I asked them how long have they been drawing. I'm thinking probably they all must have love drawing so much since little. Most of them answered they started it during their high school days.Oh........just like me. I started during my high school days too. Only that I stopped after a few weeks of doing it and my course mates here kept on drawing until they mastered it. I'm thinking, if I haven't give up drawing back then, I might be just as good as them now. Well, I guess it's better late than never right?After all, all I need to do now is keep on sketching, drawing and produce some amazing artworks. Let's start it again now~

Will it End?

They say that we need 3 years to develop a good habit, but it takes only 3 days to have a bad habit.

Some of us are aware that we're having REAL bad habits and need to stop them. We knew they're bad and must be stopped but we still keep doing it although part of our consciousness say they must be stopped!

Temptation are hard to resists. We keep telling ourselves "this would be the last", "by tomorrow I'll stop it". But how many of us are really stopping the bad habit. Example of the bad habit - sleeping very late at night. Yes, like myself, I sleep very late at night. Even I was feeling very tired and drained, the clock strikes 1am, I would still feel "it's still early".

True enough, I often tell myself to go bed early but I still carry on with that bad habit. I keep doing it, my mind tells me to stop it, I keep doing it again. The flow just keep going on endlessly. Maybe the flow will stop if I put a stop to it.

Most people would say you must have determination to stop a bad habit. You're determined to stop it. However, things do not go the way it is. You make an effort to stop it but it's not working. "I've tried my best but it doesn't work." Did we really put much amount of effort to stop it? Or we lied to ourselves saying it is okay because we couldn't find the answer.

I myself have a few bad habits I couldn't get rid off. Sometimes I ask myself, why am I still doing it. And the answer I come up myself is "I've tried but I fail. I wasn't determined enough". Is it true? Is it because I wasn't determined enough? Or because it's alright to keep doing it despite knowing the consequences.

I'm a senior??

So, a new semester begins. Right now, I'm a first year, semester 3 student in my universities. Being in semester 3 seems great? I'm a senior among the first years! Well, it's nothing excited about that. I used to think that being a senior makes you kind of like "the almighty one". But actually, thought you're a senior among the first years, there's still somebody who are more older than you are. The second and the third years student, they have more experience in studies than you are. So, there's nothing for me to boast about.

I've remembered  something embarrassing during the last semester. Despite just being a 1st year, semester 2 student, I felt so superior! "I'm gonna have junior this year! I want to help them in case they have problems! Or they'll come to me for advice when they have problems!" Oh, just thinking about being able to be the big sister figure-like just makes me happy! Of course sometimes when the small ones depend on you can be difficult sometimes, but thinking about these little ones come to me for help makes me happy! 

HOWEVER, none of that can really happen. I realised there's very few new intakes this semester and I felt why is there more seniors than usual? Oh my......I feel very small suddenly. Here I am, coming to campus with high hopes of becoming a great senior but I end up being another plain old junior for other students. This is just like a freshman on his first day of high school, surrounded by so many seniors. I can't help but feeling small!!!! 

Well, that  first week was pretty embarrassing one. So, now I'm here. A senior among the 1st years. I don't feel superior anymore. I'm just another student who studies that this campus, just like you. I don't care how others see me as, be it a junior or a senior, that's up to you until you come ask me which year I am. Still, I'm aware that deep down, I still wanna be treated like a senior......AH SCREW MYSELF!!!!

I have a sweet tooth. VERY sweet tooth!

It's weekend already! Despite being a sloth at home, not a pig but A SLOTH (sloths are worse than pigs at my point), I felt I should go out to some place. What place should I go, I haven't got a slightest idea. So, I get my lazy ass up and went to KLCC. Why went as far as KLCC when Mid-Valley is just 10-15 minutes away going by bus? I like travel far perhaps? or I just want to be at KLCC? (someone hit this dumb-headed person please?!!) In the end I found myself clueless why I'm in KLCC in the first place. (really a dumb-headed person).

Anyway, I'm not fond of shopping for clothes, shoes, bags or any other lady-girly stuffs, hence, the prices are...LOL... e.x.p.e.n.s.i.v.e......So, I walked, walked, had my lunch, and continue walking, until I came across this beauty~ *points down*

Candylicious shop!!! (inserts inner scream here)
I have always love sweets!! It doesn't matter what kind of sweets it is AS LONG AS THEY'RE CANDY, I'LL BE HAPPILY TO DEVOUR THEM!!

A friend of mine once blogged about the days she's in KL and she went to this candy shop, to conclude, she said it's like walking to a sweets paradise! (I feel you sister!) Now here I am, standing in front of this shop, still feeling awestruck from those, CANDIES!!! I walked in as if I'm in a paradise~~ (too much exaggeration here).

LOOK AT THOSE GIANT LOLLIPOP TREE!!! That lollipop tree......!!

God damn those lollipops. Giant lollipops on a tree. Stop tempting me!! Plus, they're not even edible. If such tress ever existed, I felt sorry for any candy-maker industries out there cause they won't be making a lot of business. With this tree, we can get free lollipops, which can make any lollipop sellers out there go out of business. Touch wood. I'm not cursing anyone here, just a joke. (Future scientists out there, invent this tree ya!!!)

Next, is the row of jelly beans!!! I usually see this on my computer screen but now, I'm seeing it with my own two EYES! These super long row of big jars, containing an uncountable amount of jelly beans! (J.E.L.L.Y B.E.A.N.S) Had some of the samples, some of them have awesome (somewhat weird) flavors. Tasted that flavors, some of them are good while some are (what the flavor is this in my mouth?!) I have to say, I'm really not a fond of jelly beans. I have a habit of biting every piece of candy that I put into my mouth, may it be hard or soft candy, and jelly beans tend to stick to my teeth always. Jelly beans, leave my sweet tooth please!

I'M A SUCKER FOR LOLLIPOPS!! Ah well, lollipops are now the candy I have once a while. Lollipops take longer time to finish and yeah, sometimes your mouth hurts just by sucking lollipops. (Sorry lollipops, you're not my favourite anymore!) Anyway, standing near these lollipops can get my head spinning due to their twirling pattern. So...many...twirling...lollipops...twirl...twirl...twirl...lollipops...twirl...

*coughs* got my senses back. Also, for those who always say "Only in Japan" (including me), the many flavors of KitKat that "Only in Japan", can be found at Candylicious. So don't you dare tell me "Only in Japan" while you can find some flavor sold here. So far, I've only found green tea, strawberry and raspberry flavor. Hence, I take my word back. For the other 10+ flavors existed (sweet potato, coffee, dark chocolate, white chocolate, corn, yam, milk, etc. etc) "ONLY IN JAPAN". *depressed*

Heck, after walking around in circles (I walked around and around many times), bought some chocolates for myself. I bought barely 140 grams and they already costs me RM12.00. Uh, once a while is okay right spending this amount of money on some few pieces of chocolates. Those chocolates are amazing though, I bought pure dark chocolates mostly including espresso chocolates!

Not to forget, besides candies, they sell few merchandise here too, candy designs though. There's bags, pouch, purse, pencil cases, mini boxes for jewelry and stationary, drinking bottles. There's also this big replica bottle of Hershey's chocolate and strawberry sauce, giant plush toy of a Ferraro Rocher chocolate, M&M's plush toys, well, all of the merchandise there are sweets and candies designs! Forgot to snap photos of some merchandise cause I was indulging myself into that so-called sweets paradise.

Oh, they have a kiosk that sells popcorn! Not your everyday eat-in-the-cinema popcorn, their's are fabulous. Very few flavors of popcorn to be chosen but they tasted great! They gave out some samples, one of them I had was caramel popcorn with almonds. Wow, caramelized popcorn with almonds and their size of popcorn are kind of big? Nice popcorn there, not to mention nice price too! *never mind* I'll just have some more of the samples. *grabs the samples and DISAPPEAR!*

And so there goes most of my time spend at the "Sweets Paradise". I didn't buy much but I enjoyed being in the shop, walking in circles! For those who have sweet tooth, please do come to Candylicious. I know some of you may have been some where much cooler but at least consider and step a foot into the shop. Sweet tooth people just gotta love SWEET STUFFS!!

P.S: "If you use your head, you won't get fat even if you eat sweets" - L.Lawliet from Death Note

(I just feel like inserting this quote, as L also have a sweet tooth. The amount of sweets he takes is UNBELIEVABLE!!)

私の人生はこれ以上悪化することができますか？

30th April 2014. Today was suppose to be a happy day cause finally I'm coming home during semester break. Happy yet sad because of what happen yesterday. Thanks to my tardiness, I let two of my photographer friends waited long for my arrival. And the whole shooting session was a big MESS! I felt bad for myself and I felt ashamed about calling them out for another photo shoot again. (>_<)

I felt so miserable, I let everybody down especially senpai who was looking forward to have a good photo shoot but in the end, nothing turns out right. (nothing turns out right whenever I'm around) *groans* Talked about this problem with my roomie, she said don't think yourself as a jinx, it's just your first photo shoot and you went unprepared. Problems occurs sometimes. I can't help but feeling helpless but at least I'm feeling a little bit alright. （￣ー￣）Ah well in the end, I couldn't help but still feeling bad and miserable during the entire day until I get home. (TT~TT)

Anyway, I reach my hometown at almost 11 p.m?? Well that was hell of along ride back home. I feel pretty bad for my mum who has waited for an hour for my arrival. Again, it's not my fault this time but someone JUST have wait long for my arrival. Why?? （￣～￣?）

Like I said, today was SUPPOSE to be a happy one BUT BAD THINGS just have to keep coming to me. On my way home, I was hungry and my mum want to bring me to buy a late night supper. We came across a junction, the area just happen to be dark, VERY dark as there were no street light. We came to a junction and we CAN actually make a turn already. BUT SOMEHOW, a motorcyclist, thought "oh, I'm heading straight, this car wanna make a turn, maybe I should head straight faster before they make the turn.Besides, this road heading straight." And the motorcyclist JUST HAVE TO SPEED UP AND DON'T WANNA SLOW DOWN, CAME RUNNING IN FRONT OF US, AND THEN  BANG!!!!!!!  Mum couldn't stop in time and hit the motorcyclist. HOW WONDERFUL! I MET AN ACCIDENT RIGHT AFTER I CAME BACK KL. How ironic too, bad things do follow me everywhere.

Anyhow, once there's an accident, you know what happens next. The authorities, the helpers, the busy-bodies, and the on-lookers just have to be there, doing their job, settle some problems, oh yeah, my brother and his friends were there to help out with the situation. And so, after midnight, we went to the nearby police station and make a report. After done with the major procedures, the police officers asks us to go meet with the sergeant to clarify things out.

FUNNY THING THOUGH!! We asked an officer where is this sergeant's office. He says it's right here and "TELL US TO WAIT IN HIS OFFICE". And soon after the sergeant came and yell at us. "What are doing in my office? Who call you to come in?" We were shocked and brother immediately answer, "the officer tell us to wait in here". Well, somehow the officer is displeased and said in a sarcastic tone, "This is not right! You can't just come in here. Everything in here is confidential. What if something in here go missing? This ain't right!"

Perhaps it's just me but I bet brother and mum must be thinking the same. (WHAT??!!! (・∀・?) Sir, your colleague told us to wait in your office and we just did what he told us. We didn't know without your permission, we're not allowed to be in your office. Why push the blame to us? We're just following "your" instructions. And yet, we're the one to blame for not following procedures. *scoffs* To that fellow officer, YOU'RE DOING YOUR JOB WELL!! GOOD JOB, I SALUTE YOU!!) (ｏ`皿′ｏ)\

So, mum explained what happen to the sergeant. Well, maybe mum was still terrified after the accident and she did tried to explain herself what REALLY happen.Without hearing further and CLEARER explanation, the sergeant just accused mum was at fault. THE F***???!!!!! The junction was clear and okay for us to make the turn. Perhaps the entire road was dark and we didn't notice a motorbike was coming BUT ONE THING WE MAKE SURE OF THAT IS THE JUNCTION WAS CLEAR AND NO VEHICLE WHEN WE'RE MAKING THE TURN. Poor that motorcyclist don't wanna slow down and came running to our direction). Of course, the sergeant insist mum was at fault. (o___o) (-___-) (=___=) Okay, so the motorcyclist was riding on the road which is heading straight, he gets the priority, and we're at wrong. (T_T) We can make the turn already. From afar, that motorcyclist should be able to see the car is making a turn and he should be slowing down at least. Oh, just because he was riding the road that was heading straight and he gets all the priorities. So to him perhaps, it doesn't matter after all, that we were the ones wanted to make the turn first and only after that he came running in. "The ones who're riding that straight road has the priority". Is that what you want to tell us?? I hope you're not covering for that motorcyclist just because he's "YOUR KIND".

 And the sergeant added, since the accident already happen, you've got no choice but to pay the fines. Mum in a trembling voice, asked how much? The sergeant reply in a sarcastic tone again, "its not much. Just RM500." Deep down inside me, I felt bad and terrible for mum. She hit a motorcyclist by accident, got blamed for the cause, and had to pay the fine. We well aware that if things like this happen, we have to pay the fine, but what gets on my every nerves is the way the sergeant said it! "It's not much, just RM500~"
EXCUSE ME SIR, to you, that RM500 might seem nothing, oh yes. That's because there is "some PEOPLE" who are "FEEDING" you every single day although you're working. And "WE", "WE" who worked our a** off to pay the "PEOPLE" who "FEED" "YOUR KIND" mostly. Hence, it is "US" who are "FEEDING" "YOU KIND". So, be grateful when there's some giving you "FREE FOOD". By the way, RM500 wasn't "not much" FOR CERTAIN PEOPLE!!!!!!

After that, the sergeant said "go back home and wait for the letter to arrive". Alright, in the end we still have to pay that fine regardless of what we said. Seems to me like "just pay the RM500, and it's settled". Easy for you to say MR. SERGEANT, for someone who's being "FED". We went home and sorted things out with dad. Not only we have to pay for the fine but also the repairs for our car. The damaged parts can't be fixed but need a replacement. Oh yeah, they costs a big fortune to my family especially dad who's already pass retirement age and still working to feed my family and THAT "CERTAIN PEOPLE".

Thanks to this accident, now I got a closer look on how our another wonderful government servants doing their job. Although it doesn't surprise me much because I had a feeling that it might turned out like this. The dominant kind of this country has all the privileges while the recessive ones just stayed by the sidelines.

申し訳ありませんが、私はあなたを怒らせている場合。ごめんなさい。

Today is my very first photo shoot day!!!!!!!!!!! I'm super excited!!!!!!!!!! I'm really excited to show you my cosplay today and perhaps show you a little improvement I've made for this photo shoot. However, man can plan it all but God decides it. ll(_ _)ll

I woke up late, I pack and prepared as fast as I could and rush down to the bus station. I was a little bit lucky as I don't have to wait long for the bus and yet, I still wish the bus can reach to the LRT station quickly.

As I step on board in the LRT, it's already 10.30 a.m. By the time I reach KLCC it's almost 11 a.m. I put on my make up as fast as I could but it's still no use. It took me almost one and a half hour to put on the make up and I make you guys wait for so long. (what's a person that decide everyone to come early but ends up the one being late) That's me. I feel HORRIBLE!

Not much to lose, I carried on with my shoot. To tell you the truth, I actually came unprepared. So, it was a big mess during the entire shooting. Despite all the big talk, I rarely did the kind of shoot that you both wanted. I really should have prepared well before coming to the shoot.

And so, the day went by just like that. Senpai, if you haven't posted about how you feel during that entire day, I wouldn't have know that I brought so much trouble for you. Perhaps maybe your friend was thinking the same thing too. 

I was very annoying and troublesome during the entire day. After you upload the photos, yeah, very few of them are okay but the rest were all disasters. Despite all the hardwork you guys been through, all i ever do was yapping a lot at the back. (>_<) 

Senpai, gomenasai. Hontou ni gomenasai. m(_ _)m . If only I've done more research and prepared earlier, this photo shoot would've been more successful. Today, I've made you and your friend came all the way for this failed photo session. I feel so bad about myself. I'm very sorry you have to see the bad side of me today. It wasn't a very pleasant one.

先輩、ごめんなさい。

New year greetings. 手遅れです！

Hello, peeps. *sorry* (^^;;

So, the year 2014 is already here. Yeah, it's too late to do new year greetings right now. It's already one week since the beginning of 2014. Anyway, Happy 2014 Year!!!! *Banzai* 

This would be my first post for 2014 and, I have nothing to blog but this lame post. ＼（－－）／ so far nothing interesting have happen except sitting down in front of Lappy everyday, doing my own (boring) stuff. I have no social life. (T_T)

Although some good things happen last year. First time able to went to Comic Fiesta. Had a nice and somewhat epic experience. Think I shall blog about it.

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Till then, I'll blog about my first experience and what I do at CF in my next post. （￣ー￣）

That is all. Thank you. Jaa, mata nee~